It's been so long!!!

Well, a year from now, or just about that, was my last blog! Yikes as the old cliche goes.. time has really flown by. At my last blog I was huge and pregers and delivered my 7lb 8 oz bundle of joy.. Alexander!! The details of that birth and this years experiences will be in subsequent blogs to follow... with pics too! I guess for now I jsut felt like getting back to sharing my thoughts, prayers and updates of my growing family! Im sill in love with Jay my boys and of course JESUS!!!!

A supernatural word

I was reading in my Joyce Meyer bible... one that she wrote little comments and insights around scriptures, and came across a really profound quote. It was in the first chapter of Peter 4... It's about being reproached when living a life for Christ and how we are to die to self so that He can truly live in us. Well she writes and I quote " If you ask Him, Jesus, He will take your mess and turn it into your ministery. When the Spirit of glory is upon you, you can help others who face the same kinds of things God has helped you overcome. Your burden can become your blessing, and you weakness can become your weapon." YOUR BURDEN CAN BECOME YOUR BLESSING, AND YOUR WEAKNESS YOUR WEAPON... I feel that I need to chew on that little nugget for a while! hmmm.. What r my weaknesses? I'm sure I have a zillion that other people see.. but I'm going to pray and ask the Lord to reveal them to me.. because what a neat concept to know tha tthey could potentially be a weapon!!!

letter to Christian

I wanted to wrie you a letter for some time now. I feel that you're world will soon be reshaping and although the new additon of your brother is most certainitly a blessing it will also be an adjustment. I think of how often it's just the two of us and ALL of my attention is yours. I wonder how will I divide myself espically with the demands of a newbron. You wondered back into our bed last night and asked to sleep next to me. I usually walk you back to your bed and lie with you til you fall back to your slumber but last night was different... I jsut wanted to lie with you and rub your little back, and just started thinking about what I wanted to tell you. First of all I want you to know that you have mad me so happy and brought me such joy.. From the moment I laid eyes on you my heart leaped from my chest. I coudln't believe that God could create someone so perfect, sweet and that you were mine. I didn't put you down oh for about 5 months.. I carried you all around the house, had you sleep next to me and your dad.. and seriously didn't take my eyes off of you! As you've grown I have enjoyed watching you explore your new world.. you're personality develope; your likes and dislikes... I can remember the first time your tiny hand grasped my finger, you rolled over, ate something with your fingers... Each milestone felt like an olympic victory!! "my son".. I would declare with such pride.. can do blah blah blah.. The bragging mother!!! And now you can talk and express yourself , your wants and needs. The guessing game is over. You want to play with your friends, be read to, and cuddled!! You are still very attached to my hip and wherever I am in th house you are sure to follow. We have such a cute routine down, you and I.. One of the most amazing things about you is yor INCREDIBLE memory.. You can remeber events, what peple have brought over and gotten you etc.. You also are so sweet; stubborn but sweet. You are kind and do not hit other kids like they do @ this age and are so senstive to the tyoe of enviroment that you are in. You love cartoons.. @ presnet is Tom and Jerry. not to my liking but Papa turned you on to that! Yo enjoy " CHEESE PIZZA"!!! and " M's".. green being your favorie color. Your favorite animal hands down is " FISHY"... You have a super cute stuffed animal of a fish that goes with us everywhere. Your favotie book is a DR. Sues A "FISH OUT OF WATER". We must have read that a million times. Although you've been wanting to be read to.. " I'M A BIG BROTHER"... toliet training not so successful but in time I'm sure you'll get there. You can count to 12, say your ABC's and pick out letters and numbers. You say please and thank you and everyday are absorbing the work around you . You pray before meals and @ bedtime and have told me on several occassions that you've seen Jesus. You laugh when others do and if I pretend to cry you run up to me and say " mama it's ok," and give me a hug. You cuddle every am with me in my bed until your ready for toons and choc milk!!! You call daddy " JAy".. and are starting to run to him for everything; espically if I tell you no!!! You ask him to read you books and cuddle but your favotie is when he gives you goobers on your belly. You laugh and laugh and say " MORE!!! You copy him too. When dads shaving you take your little sttol and stand next to him and make the same motons on your face with a comb! You two wrestle and now he even has you doing a push up!!! He is your stregnth and you do prety much obey him better than me. You just have to bat those beautiful eye lashes and hazel eyes and well you're got me wrapped!!! Your favorite people in the worl are MIMA, NINI and PAPA... You are blessed to have such wonderful grandparents that participate in our lives on a dai;y basis. They adore you as you do them.. And watching your guys relationship has brought to your dad and I such joy. We consequently have become even closer to them as well.. and for that I am truly greatful! I see the lord working through you already to bring others joy and light. I want you to know that even though there will be another additon to our family that you are not going to be pushed aside or ignored. You're gong to be the greaest big brother and I'm sure will have fun being mamas big helper!! I feel that the Lord has been growing my heart since the day your little bro was brought into excitsence. I am excited to watch the two of your grow up together, love each other and become the very best of friends. i promise to do my very best to love you and raise you both with the direction of the Holy Spirit and realization that it's not children that are being raised but future men. You both will be husbands and consequently fathers one day and it's an honor to rear you in the correct direction! I feel so blessed to have this oppertunity and can not express my gratitude to the Lord enough in words!! So for now He will just have to know what's in my heart. You're little bro will be here shortly but for now I will pick you up, cuddle you and share our alone time .. just the two of us!!! LOVE YOU

Good Am

Good Am Jesus!!! This IS the day that the Lord has made and I WILL rejoice in it!!! Thank you for allowing me to awaken next to my hubby, with smell of fresh crisp autum air and hear the litle pitta patter of Christian's feet as he ran to greet us. Thank you for the rib kick from that little guy still brewing in my bely. Thank you for unspeakable joy that could only come from your Holy Spirit. Thank you for the running water in the sink, milk in the fridge and the the job that Jay just left to work at. Thank you for these moments that You have me realize how blessed I am . I pray that for today this joyous feeling would not flee from me. I pray that I would hold fast to it as You Almighty Father hold fast to each of us. I lift up Jay today and pray that you would pour out your abundmace on him and have your Holy Spirit light up his heart. I pray that Christian would shine your glory and that he would be protected from the top of his tead to his toes. I pray that my parents and bro are also touched in a supernatural way from your Holy Spirit and that your presence permenaes their hearts and minds. I pray for a hedge of protection around our family and that NO WEAPON FORMED AGAINST US SHALL PROSPER.. I pray for Jay's fami;ly that they too shall walk in your shadow , feeling your holy presence and shall be saved. FOR ME AND MY HOUSEHOLD SHALL SERVE THE LORD! I also pray that today I would have a keen ear to hear your voice and sharp eyes to see your handywork. Dwell in this heart of mine dear Lord and remove from it any uguliness, selfishness or unforgiveness. I pray to be your salt and light and reflect your glory. I love you and honor you and give to you my Savior all praises.. In your great name I pray JESUS CHRIST AMEN....

What's new

I will copy my friend Angelas blog and give whoever cares an update on my life.. also this way I can review back and show my children all the fun stuff that we did. So it's kind of like a journal for them as well.
1) Christian restarted his speech up again.. and is loving it. Although Miss Heather thinks he's made vast improvements we are working on three and four letter sentances.

2) Went with BF Ang to a great little festivile by my house and Olivia rode a camel.. named Gunther.. I thought that was a huge step for her and showed me how big she's really getting. My little man on the other hand wanted NOTHING to do with Gunther! I was hoping all the walking, hey rides etc would bring my new man out... no such luck...

3) Went to Cafe conection on Sat nt had a fabo time per usual.. was prayed for by our wonderful womans leader and had great fellowship with the ladies.

4)Had mommies in faith eariler that am and again great fellowship and prayer with my inner circle of babe friends. We get along so well and are all on the same page as what we desire for our kids and their lives.

5) Went to BF Krystes house for a Pampered Chef party although I didn't care about the pots and pans it was just such fun to hang with her!!!She's a busy mama and I miss her but her swimming thing will be ended soon.

6) Saw sister in law who just had surgery and brought some din din over and visited...

7) Had the gals over today for a " play date" which was great fun .. and Joanna blessed me with some baby items and of course her and Joys company is always uplifting!! I taped our little people playing and can still remember when they were soo tiny and crawling.. Gosh how fast they grow!!!

I see a theme going on here. I guess not really doing anything of real improtance just kind of visiting!!! I have felt like this incredible need to keep busy and not get lazy . I'm so used to working and having a million things on my agenda that's it's weird to feel so good and have everything ready for the baby and have really nothing that I " HAVE" to get done!! I'm not the kind of girl that likes to lay around.. I'm a busy body. Although I ahve questioned the Lord a lot about contentmant issues.. Why can I just not be content just being where I am rt now. I know this is but a sason and soon enough my new blessing will be here. However I wake up each am like ok Lord what's on the agenda board for today. So after the per usual domestic duties I try to find thigs to keep my busy. But I like to keep a useful busy though.. not just wasting time!!! Everyone says just rest you'll need it.. But I don't know. I think the Lord has just given me a super dose of energy hormone!!!! But as for now I will enjoy this time. It has given me the chance to read a few good books, pray a lot longer and more frequently, spend some incredible wonderful time with Christian, and catch up with my babe friends!!! Also I am cooking different din din and learning how to use the computer.. Now if I could only stop shopping and spending Jays hard earned dollar!!!

My Hubby

I was sitting in church today and Pastor said something about a grateful heart and the value of appreciating those who the Lord has placed in your life. Usually my mind would would be consumed with thoughts of Christian and of being pregnant etc.. But today I was overwhelmed with thoughts of Jay. I think when you are pregers and have a 2 year old your mind often focus on yourself or your kids.. Your aches and pains, the newest thing buba learned etc.. But today the focus is on you Jay.. if you have time to read my blog hopefully you'll be pleasantly surprised that You are where my thoughts are at. So here is a list of the reasons I appreciate you and am grateful to my heavenly father for you!!
1) Your considerate of my feelings all the time
2) the perfect way you make me grill cheese like every night
3) how you work so hard so that I can fulfill the desire of my heart which is to be home and raise our boys
4) for going to school after work no matter how tired you are because you know with this new degree it will enable you to make more money so again I can stay home with our men
5) the way you sacrifice stuff for yourself like golf, and monetary things so that we can buy groceries, clothes for christian etc...
6) the way you spend your time with us and not going out with your buds... even though I do tell you to go out!!!
7) the way you tell me that I am beautiful even though my hair needs to be highlighted; I've gained 50 preger lbs and haven't put on a sexy outfit in ages!!!
8) the way you will chase buba around the house for me , give him a bath and get him ready for bed when you know I'm just too tired!!!
9) you leave me 20 bucks in the junk drawer just in case I get a late or baskin robbins craving
10) how you encourage me to go out with the girls and never ask how much I spent when I get home!!
11) I am thankful for all the attempts you make with Christian to get him to go to you more.. even though he's a " mama's boy" now; I know you'll have your turn
12) I love the way when you think I'm completely asleep you lie next to me in bed and rub my tumy and tell me you love me
13) I love that you come rt home after work or school each night with a smile on your face
14) I am grateful for how helpful you've been around the house... you're such a domestic man now!!!!
15) But most of all I am grateful for each night that we pray and the Godly man that you are .. and the awesome husband and dad that you are growing into be. Your heart is so big and you truly walk in the fruits of the spirit. Thank you for putting our family first and working so diligently so that during this season I can be @ home with the boys instilling in them the character and values that you reflect. My prayer is that they will be as considerate, compassionate and wonderful as you are. I am so in love with you !!!

Am learning

As I sit here @ my kitchen table and try to teach my 2 year old I can not help but laugh... I'm in serious " teacher" mode and as I review letters , colors and shapes I look over to see that he has stragacially placed caps of markers on all 10 of his fingers!!! He's singing some sort of tune and reciting back to me what each marker's cap color is. am amazed at how fast he's picking up everything !! He can count to 10; although he often skips 4, knows his ABC's and can even pick out the letters in a book!! I can proudly declasre that there are none of my accomplishments in education have made me as fulfilled s the first time Christian actually learned something that I purposely taught him!!! Now spelling that he'll have to go to " real " school for; maybe I'll even attend a class with him or two! An update on the potty training.. w He can aquire a " treat" when he peepees or pooppes on the pottie. And that treat is an M&M.. So I let him run around bottomless and constantly place him on his litle pot and encourage him to let it go!!! Well yesterday he ran upstairs as I was preparing lunch and then ran to me enthustatically declaring "MAMA TREAT"!!! I replied oh good lets go look in the potty ... Well he directed me to his heep of poop on my bedroom floor. As I approached his mess he was clapping and dancing and saying.. " treat treat!!"... UGH!!! " No buba in the P O T T Y!!!!"... His reply " I DID!!".. When did my bedroom floor become the toliet? i tried to explain to him that he can't get the treat because he didn't go in the potty. Completely crushed he retreated to my bed covered his head and cried. Ahhh I of course went down stairs got a him a bowl of M & M's , put a diaper on his butt and told him we'd try again tomorrow!!!