letter to Christian

I wanted to wrie you a letter for some time now. I feel that you're world will soon be reshaping and although the new additon of your brother is most certainitly a blessing it will also be an adjustment. I think of how often it's just the two of us and ALL of my attention is yours. I wonder how will I divide myself espically with the demands of a newbron. You wondered back into our bed last night and asked to sleep next to me. I usually walk you back to your bed and lie with you til you fall back to your slumber but last night was different... I jsut wanted to lie with you and rub your little back, and just started thinking about what I wanted to tell you. First of all I want you to know that you have mad me so happy and brought me such joy.. From the moment I laid eyes on you my heart leaped from my chest. I coudln't believe that God could create someone so perfect, sweet and that you were mine. I didn't put you down oh for about 5 months.. I carried you all around the house, had you sleep next to me and your dad.. and seriously didn't take my eyes off of you! As you've grown I have enjoyed watching you explore your new world.. you're personality develope; your likes and dislikes... I can remember the first time your tiny hand grasped my finger, you rolled over, ate something with your fingers... Each milestone felt like an olympic victory!! "my son".. I would declare with such pride.. can do blah blah blah.. The bragging mother!!! And now you can talk and express yourself , your wants and needs. The guessing game is over. You want to play with your friends, be read to, and cuddled!! You are still very attached to my hip and wherever I am in th house you are sure to follow. We have such a cute routine down, you and I.. One of the most amazing things about you is yor INCREDIBLE memory.. You can remeber events, what peple have brought over and gotten you etc.. You also are so sweet; stubborn but sweet. You are kind and do not hit other kids like they do @ this age and are so senstive to the tyoe of enviroment that you are in. You love cartoons.. @ presnet is Tom and Jerry. not to my liking but Papa turned you on to that! Yo enjoy " CHEESE PIZZA"!!! and " M's".. green being your favorie color. Your favorite animal hands down is " FISHY"... You have a super cute stuffed animal of a fish that goes with us everywhere. Your favotie book is a DR. Sues A "FISH OUT OF WATER". We must have read that a million times. Although you've been wanting to be read to.. " I'M A BIG BROTHER"... toliet training not so successful but in time I'm sure you'll get there. You can count to 12, say your ABC's and pick out letters and numbers. You say please and thank you and everyday are absorbing the work around you . You pray before meals and @ bedtime and have told me on several occassions that you've seen Jesus. You laugh when others do and if I pretend to cry you run up to me and say " mama it's ok," and give me a hug. You cuddle every am with me in my bed until your ready for toons and choc milk!!! You call daddy " JAy".. and are starting to run to him for everything; espically if I tell you no!!! You ask him to read you books and cuddle but your favotie is when he gives you goobers on your belly. You laugh and laugh and say " MORE!!! You copy him too. When dads shaving you take your little sttol and stand next to him and make the same motons on your face with a comb! You two wrestle and now he even has you doing a push up!!! He is your stregnth and you do prety much obey him better than me. You just have to bat those beautiful eye lashes and hazel eyes and well you're got me wrapped!!! Your favorite people in the worl are MIMA, NINI and PAPA... You are blessed to have such wonderful grandparents that participate in our lives on a dai;y basis. They adore you as you do them.. And watching your guys relationship has brought to your dad and I such joy. We consequently have become even closer to them as well.. and for that I am truly greatful! I see the lord working through you already to bring others joy and light. I want you to know that even though there will be another additon to our family that you are not going to be pushed aside or ignored. You're gong to be the greaest big brother and I'm sure will have fun being mamas big helper!! I feel that the Lord has been growing my heart since the day your little bro was brought into excitsence. I am excited to watch the two of your grow up together, love each other and become the very best of friends. i promise to do my very best to love you and raise you both with the direction of the Holy Spirit and realization that it's not children that are being raised but future men. You both will be husbands and consequently fathers one day and it's an honor to rear you in the correct direction! I feel so blessed to have this oppertunity and can not express my gratitude to the Lord enough in words!! So for now He will just have to know what's in my heart. You're little bro will be here shortly but for now I will pick you up, cuddle you and share our alone time .. just the two of us!!! LOVE YOU