Welcome To Missy's Blog!

It's been so long!!!

2009-08-28T13:16:00.000-07:00

Well, a year from now, or just about that, was my last blog! Yikes as the old cliche goes.. time has really flown by. At my last blog I was huge and pregers and delivered my 7lb 8 oz bundle of joy.. Alexander!! The details of that birth and this years experiences will be in subsequent blogs to follow... with pics too! I guess for now I jsut felt like getting back to sharing my thoughts, prayers and updates of my growing family! Im sill in love with Jay my boys and of course JESUS!!!!

A supernatural word

2008-09-22T15:56:00.000-07:00

I was reading in my Joyce Meyer bible... one that she wrote little comments and insights around scriptures, and came across a really profound quote. It was in the first chapter of Peter 4... It's about being reproached when living a life for Christ and how we are to die to self so that He can truly live in us. Well she writes and I quote " If you ask Him, Jesus, He will take your mess and turn it into your ministery. When the Spirit of glory is upon you, you can help others who face the same kinds of things God has helped you overcome. Your burden can become your blessing, and you weakness can become your weapon." YOUR BURDEN CAN BECOME YOUR BLESSING, AND YOUR WEAKNESS YOUR WEAPON... I feel that I need to chew on that little nugget for a while! hmmm.. What r my weaknesses? I'm sure I have a zillion that other people see.. but I'm going to pray and ask the Lord to reveal them to me.. because what a neat concept to know tha tthey could potentially be a weapon!!!

letter to Christian

2008-09-20T04:57:00.000-07:00

I wanted to wrie you a letter for some time now. I feel that you're world will soon be reshaping and although the new additon of your brother is most certainitly a blessing it will also be an adjustment. I think of how often it's just the two of us and ALL of my attention is yours. I wonder how will I divide myself espically with the demands of a newbron. You wondered back into our bed last night and asked to sleep next to me. I usually walk you back to your bed and lie with you til you fall back to your slumber but last night was different... I jsut wanted to lie with you and rub your little back, and just started thinking about what I wanted to tell you. First of all I want you to know that you have mad me so happy and brought me such joy.. From the moment I laid eyes on you my heart leaped from my chest. I coudln't believe that God could create someone so perfect, sweet and that you were mine. I didn't put you down oh for about 5 months.. I carried you all around the house, had you sleep next to me and your dad.. and seriously didn't take my eyes off of you! As you've grown I have enjoyed watching you explore your new world.. you're personality develope; your likes and dislikes... I can remember the first time your tiny hand grasped my finger, you rolled over, ate something with your fingers... Each milestone felt like an olympic victory!! "my son".. I would declare with such pride.. can do blah blah blah.. The bragging mother!!! And now you can talk and express yourself , your wants and needs. The guessing game is over. You want to play with your friends, be read to, and cuddled!! You are still very attached to my hip and wherever I am in th house you are sure to follow. We have such a cute routine down, you and I.. One of the most amazing things about you is yor INCREDIBLE memory.. You can remeber events, what peple have brought over and gotten you etc.. You also are so sweet; stubborn but sweet. You are kind and do not hit other kids like they do @ this age and are so senstive to the tyoe of enviroment that you are in. You love cartoons.. @ presnet is Tom and Jerry. not to my liking but Papa turned you on to that! Yo enjoy " CHEESE PIZZA"!!! and " M's".. green being your favorie color. Your favorite animal hands down is " FISHY"... You have a super cute stuffed animal of a fish that goes with us everywhere. Your favotie book is a DR. Sues A "FISH OUT OF WATER". We must have read that a million times. Although you've been wanting to be read to.. " I'M A BIG BROTHER"... toliet training not so successful but in time I'm sure you'll get there. You can count to 12, say your ABC's and pick out letters and numbers. You say please and thank you and everyday are absorbing the work around you . You pray before meals and @ bedtime and have told me on several occassions that you've seen Jesus. You laugh when others do and if I pretend to cry you run up to me and say " mama it's ok," and give me a hug. You cuddle every am with me in my bed until your ready for toons and choc milk!!! You call daddy " JAy".. and are starting to run to him for everything; espically if I tell you no!!! You ask him to read you books and cuddle but your favotie is when he gives you goobers on your belly. You laugh and laugh and say " MORE!!! You copy him too. When dads shaving you take your little sttol and stand next to him and make the same motons on your face with a comb! You two wrestle and now he even has you doing a push up!!! He is your stregnth and you do prety much obey him better than me. You just have to bat those beautiful eye lashes and hazel eyes and well you're got me wrapped!!! Your favorite people in the worl are MIMA, NINI and PAPA... You are blessed to have such wonderful grandparents that participate in our lives on a dai;y basis. They adore you as you do them.. And watching your guys relationship has brought to your dad and I such joy. We consequently have become even closer to them as well.. and for that I am truly greatful! I see the lord working through you already to bring others joy and light. I want you to know that even though there will be another additon to our family that you are not going to be pushed aside or ignored. You're gong to be the greaest big brother and I'm sure will have fun being mamas big helper!! I feel that the Lord has been growing my heart since the day your little bro was brought into excitsence. I am excited to watch the two of your grow up together, love each other and become the very best of friends. i promise to do my very best to love you and raise you both with the direction of the Holy Spirit and realization that it's not children that are being raised but future men. You both will be husbands and consequently fathers one day and it's an honor to rear you in the correct direction! I feel so blessed to have this oppertunity and can not express my gratitude to the Lord enough in words!! So for now He will just have to know what's in my heart. You're little bro will be here shortly but for now I will pick you up, cuddle you and share our alone time .. just the two of us!!! LOVE YOU

Good Am

2008-09-19T04:45:00.000-07:00

Good Am Jesus!!! This IS the day that the Lord has made and I WILL rejoice in it!!! Thank you for allowing me to awaken next to my hubby, with smell of fresh crisp autum air and hear the litle pitta patter of Christian's feet as he ran to greet us. Thank you for the rib kick from that little guy still brewing in my bely. Thank you for unspeakable joy that could only come from your Holy Spirit. Thank you for the running water in the sink, milk in the fridge and the the job that Jay just left to work at. Thank you for these moments that You have me realize how blessed I am . I pray that for today this joyous feeling would not flee from me. I pray that I would hold fast to it as You Almighty Father hold fast to each of us. I lift up Jay today and pray that you would pour out your abundmace on him and have your Holy Spirit light up his heart. I pray that Christian would shine your glory and that he would be protected from the top of his tead to his toes. I pray that my parents and bro are also touched in a supernatural way from your Holy Spirit and that your presence permenaes their hearts and minds. I pray for a hedge of protection around our family and that NO WEAPON FORMED AGAINST US SHALL PROSPER.. I pray for Jay's fami;ly that they too shall walk in your shadow , feeling your holy presence and shall be saved. FOR ME AND MY HOUSEHOLD SHALL SERVE THE LORD! I also pray that today I would have a keen ear to hear your voice and sharp eyes to see your handywork. Dwell in this heart of mine dear Lord and remove from it any uguliness, selfishness or unforgiveness. I pray to be your salt and light and reflect your glory. I love you and honor you and give to you my Savior all praises.. In your great name I pray JESUS CHRIST AMEN....

What's new

2008-09-17T18:22:00.000-07:00

I will copy my friend Angelas blog and give whoever cares an update on my life.. also this way I can review back and show my children all the fun stuff that we did. So it's kind of like a journal for them as well.
1) Christian restarted his speech up again.. and is loving it. Although Miss Heather thinks he's made vast improvements we are working on three and four letter sentances.

2) Went with BF Ang to a great little festivile by my house and Olivia rode a camel.. named Gunther.. I thought that was a huge step for her and showed me how big she's really getting. My little man on the other hand wanted NOTHING to do with Gunther! I was hoping all the walking, hey rides etc would bring my new man out... no such luck...

3) Went to Cafe conection on Sat nt had a fabo time per usual.. was prayed for by our wonderful womans leader and had great fellowship with the ladies.

4)Had mommies in faith eariler that am and again great fellowship and prayer with my inner circle of babe friends. We get along so well and are all on the same page as what we desire for our kids and their lives.

5) Went to BF Krystes house for a Pampered Chef party although I didn't care about the pots and pans it was just such fun to hang with her!!!She's a busy mama and I miss her but her swimming thing will be ended soon.

6) Saw sister in law who just had surgery and brought some din din over and visited...

7) Had the gals over today for a " play date" which was great fun .. and Joanna blessed me with some baby items and of course her and Joys company is always uplifting!! I taped our little people playing and can still remember when they were soo tiny and crawling.. Gosh how fast they grow!!!

I see a theme going on here. I guess not really doing anything of real improtance just kind of visiting!!! I have felt like this incredible need to keep busy and not get lazy . I'm so used to working and having a million things on my agenda that's it's weird to feel so good and have everything ready for the baby and have really nothing that I " HAVE" to get done!! I'm not the kind of girl that likes to lay around.. I'm a busy body. Although I ahve questioned the Lord a lot about contentmant issues.. Why can I just not be content just being where I am rt now. I know this is but a sason and soon enough my new blessing will be here. However I wake up each am like ok Lord what's on the agenda board for today. So after the per usual domestic duties I try to find thigs to keep my busy. But I like to keep a useful busy though.. not just wasting time!!! Everyone says just rest you'll need it.. But I don't know. I think the Lord has just given me a super dose of energy hormone!!!! But as for now I will enjoy this time. It has given me the chance to read a few good books, pray a lot longer and more frequently, spend some incredible wonderful time with Christian, and catch up with my babe friends!!! Also I am cooking different din din and learning how to use the computer.. Now if I could only stop shopping and spending Jays hard earned dollar!!!

My Hubby

2008-09-07T12:33:00.000-07:00

I was sitting in church today and Pastor said something about a grateful heart and the value of appreciating those who the Lord has placed in your life. Usually my mind would would be consumed with thoughts of Christian and of being pregnant etc.. But today I was overwhelmed with thoughts of Jay. I think when you are pregers and have a 2 year old your mind often focus on yourself or your kids.. Your aches and pains, the newest thing buba learned etc.. But today the focus is on you Jay.. if you have time to read my blog hopefully you'll be pleasantly surprised that You are where my thoughts are at. So here is a list of the reasons I appreciate you and am grateful to my heavenly father for you!!
1) Your considerate of my feelings all the time
2) the perfect way you make me grill cheese like every night
3) how you work so hard so that I can fulfill the desire of my heart which is to be home and raise our boys
4) for going to school after work no matter how tired you are because you know with this new degree it will enable you to make more money so again I can stay home with our men
5) the way you sacrifice stuff for yourself like golf, and monetary things so that we can buy groceries, clothes for christian etc...
6) the way you spend your time with us and not going out with your buds... even though I do tell you to go out!!!
7) the way you tell me that I am beautiful even though my hair needs to be highlighted; I've gained 50 preger lbs and haven't put on a sexy outfit in ages!!!
8) the way you will chase buba around the house for me , give him a bath and get him ready for bed when you know I'm just too tired!!!
9) you leave me 20 bucks in the junk drawer just in case I get a late or baskin robbins craving
10) how you encourage me to go out with the girls and never ask how much I spent when I get home!!
11) I am thankful for all the attempts you make with Christian to get him to go to you more.. even though he's a " mama's boy" now; I know you'll have your turn
12) I love the way when you think I'm completely asleep you lie next to me in bed and rub my tumy and tell me you love me
13) I love that you come rt home after work or school each night with a smile on your face
14) I am grateful for how helpful you've been around the house... you're such a domestic man now!!!!
15) But most of all I am grateful for each night that we pray and the Godly man that you are .. and the awesome husband and dad that you are growing into be. Your heart is so big and you truly walk in the fruits of the spirit. Thank you for putting our family first and working so diligently so that during this season I can be @ home with the boys instilling in them the character and values that you reflect. My prayer is that they will be as considerate, compassionate and wonderful as you are. I am so in love with you !!!

Am learning

2008-09-05T07:09:00.000-07:00

As I sit here @ my kitchen table and try to teach my 2 year old I can not help but laugh... I'm in serious " teacher" mode and as I review letters , colors and shapes I look over to see that he has stragacially placed caps of markers on all 10 of his fingers!!! He's singing some sort of tune and reciting back to me what each marker's cap color is. am amazed at how fast he's picking up everything !! He can count to 10; although he often skips 4, knows his ABC's and can even pick out the letters in a book!! I can proudly declasre that there are none of my accomplishments in education have made me as fulfilled s the first time Christian actually learned something that I purposely taught him!!! Now spelling that he'll have to go to " real " school for; maybe I'll even attend a class with him or two! An update on the potty training.. w He can aquire a " treat" when he peepees or pooppes on the pottie. And that treat is an M&M.. So I let him run around bottomless and constantly place him on his litle pot and encourage him to let it go!!! Well yesterday he ran upstairs as I was preparing lunch and then ran to me enthustatically declaring "MAMA TREAT"!!! I replied oh good lets go look in the potty ... Well he directed me to his heep of poop on my bedroom floor. As I approached his mess he was clapping and dancing and saying.. " treat treat!!"... UGH!!! " No buba in the P O T T Y!!!!"... His reply " I DID!!".. When did my bedroom floor become the toliet? i tried to explain to him that he can't get the treat because he didn't go in the potty. Completely crushed he retreated to my bed covered his head and cried. Ahhh I of course went down stairs got a him a bowl of M & M's , put a diaper on his butt and told him we'd try again tomorrow!!!

Mommies

2008-09-04T11:59:00.001-07:00

this is a picture from my diaper shower that was thrown for me a week ago. I was showered not only with diapers but also with love! This is such a unique group of friends that the Lord has encircled me with. We are all moms with our primary goals being the same. To raise our babies to love and follow the Lord. Through this journey we strive to " better" ourselves witht he equiping of the Holy spirit. We value our season that we are in rt now and look forward to the futire. The next picture marks a milestone for my little man. He for the first time had a haircut without screaming snot running holding onto my neck!!! He's getting so big!!!

So happy

2008-09-01T19:06:00.000-07:00

I feel happier than I ever have in all of my life. Today I awoke with literally a song of praise to the Lord; a smile from ear to ear and a warm feeling in my heart. As the end of this pregnancy is nearing I reflect on what a rollercoaster of health issues it has been. 5 long months of sever nausea and subsequent vomitting, hospital visits, blood pressure issues etc. Finally I feel really good. Besides the gerd and occassional pee after laughing... this body actually feels great!!! And a huge bonus is the leaps and bounds that Christian has made over the summer. He is actually speaking in sentenances!!! It's amazing!!! He is kind, sweet spirited, polite, adventerous, curious, and my " bestestest friend"... I've decided to home preschool him so I bought the work books , flash cards, math stuff etc.. He loves to be read to and it's amazig how quickly he has picked up things. He is already counting to 10, knows his ABC's and is trying to say what the letter is when he sees it in written form. Tomorrow his speech therapist comes by to re evaluate him for this school year. I hope he still qualifies. He loved " MIss Heather'..And it's 45 min two times a week that's just for him!! The other reasone for this immense joy is the woderful relationship that Jay and I have. Our marriage is even stronger than ever and he has been such a great " help mate". We've been able to sit down and write our goals for Christian for us as individuals and for our marriage. We have reached a point where we are totally dependant upon the Lord for His direction and are committed to nightly prayer and seeking His ways first in our lives. As for now I will enjoy this season knowing that like nature theses seasons do change. But I do feel a charging in my spirit and stregnth within myself to be able to " deal with it".. no matter what comes this way. So tonight I will pray with Jay for the continual growth of our family and marriage and that His blood will cover and protect us...

Supermom!!!

2008-08-14T10:55:00.000-07:00

So I was up late lst night watching a TLc program called Duggars Big Family Album.. Well this show certainitly inspired me!!! This mother gave birth to 17 children!!! And this is a sound christian " normal" family. They didn't appear " cooky" or " off the deep end"... They were genuinely good to one another and the chldren were so respectful and well behaved!!! It's kind of like John and Kate plus 8 .. a real life documentary!! I couldn't believe it. The mom was so composed , organized, at peace and skinny!!! So I reflect on my day... and had to chuckle @ the memory of me chasing my 2 1/2 year old man through the house with a hanger trying to get that butt!!! " I told you and told you and now you're gonna get it!"... As he LAUGHS at me and leaps from chair to couch up stairs and eventually underneath my bed!!!! At this point I'm too exhausted to put up a fight... I retreat... he slowly walks up to me..." muma.. I sory"... I try so hard not to laugh.. but just know that his sweet smile is contagious. " I know Buba".. we cuddle and I ask him if he's ready for a nap.. " no" is his reply; per usual.. As I begin to refocus on the show @ hand I can not get over the compuse of this woman!! HOw does she do it? How can someone with theses many kids have it " all together".. So I went on their web site and you know what they sum it up in one word... JESUS!!! They give all of their credit of parenting skills etc to the Lord AND their " ownwers" manual is the Bible! And they do not appear to be like a freakish christian or anything; they are still really level headed. So I thought to myself today I wanna be like a Duggar. I may not have all my kids start with the lettter J and not cut the gilrs hair.. but it's that composure and peace that draws me in. How crazy would I look @ times if someone was actually videaotaping me chasing my son around or yelling from across the room etc. Then it dawned on me I'm being taped every second!! he is watching me.. kids are only little for a small time and they absorb EVERYTHING!!! If I'm a nut job running around what will he view as " normal".. I want to attend a " Duggar " camp.. maybe they'll let me live with them for a while in training.. but as for now I will have to rely on the HOly spirit and surrender this spirit to His... My prayer is for a true renewal of mind and that I will change my " crazy" ways and resmeble that " Duggar" mom... compose, peacful and of course skinny!!!!

Complaints

2008-07-03T09:33:00.000-07:00

Ok so I have a list of complaints! i usually ramble off my list to Jay over dinner but thought you know what.. I'm not going to do that to him tonight! Instead I'll tell the world so for one night he doesn't have to be burdened. And yes I have to tell them out loud.. it makes me feel better.
1) ACID REFLUX generically known as GERD. If you've never had the pleasure of experiencing this than don't even bother reading the rest of this blog you will NOT understand. I try to explain it to Jay like this.. " So it BURNS!! it's like acid is burning in my chest and filling up my throat. Everything makes it worse and laying down FORGET it! Then it's practically in my mouth. And you wanna french kiss me! The acid may burn off your tongue!"
2) Crazy allergies. Never had these beauties before.. Watery, itchy eyes, constant sneezing. And yea now when I sneeze I pee on myself a little.. Oh it's just a dribble but just enough to make me unconftorable where I have to change my underwear.
3) Constant cough.. Have no clue why but all day and nt and if I really start coughing hard... you guessed it dribble dribble
4) Achy back.. maybe because I've gained 37 lbs in my abd in like 3 months
5) I was getting Charley horses in my legs and feet but PRAISE THE LORD that has disappeared... but let me recap. A Charley horse hurts as bad as pushing a watermelon out of your chocha.. And the books say to " walk it out" . The only thing I wanna do is Punch Jay out cuz it usually happens in my sleep from which I awaken and he lies there sleeping like a baby
6) Getting fat.. hmm need I go on
7) Breast tenderness and these nipples are gigantic!!! And now a crazy thing happened to my body is that they touch my stomach. Yes if I sit down without a bra on these mammoth size boobies actually reach the top of my growing belly.. Now isn't that sexy
8) Constant hunger.. but since my mans growing so fast and big I can only put so much in so like an hour again I'm starving. Starving like I'm a desolate African refugee and only had some grains of rice the last month.
9) Peeing constantly.. Thinking that I am going to pee out a waterfall and what happens dribble dribble... Oh 10 min later back in the bathroom for more dribble dribble
10) Irritability hmmm need I go on...
So Jay this blog is for you baby!! If you even read these just know that tonight these lips are sealed .. except for kisses that is!!!

Tragadey

2008-07-03T06:47:00.000-07:00

There has been a tragedy in my family this week. My cousin boyfriend of many years died in a motorcycle accident with which he was racing @ 180mph in Detroit. Unfortunately he did not survive and my cousin witnessed the whole contras trophy. They were very much in love and Will was a huge part of our family's life. Sitting in bed @ 11 pm and hearing about the news my heart ached... It ached not only for the parents and extended family that will have to bear his loss but my tears were for my cousin. Are we really that close? Honestly no, but to know that her heart was breaking was enough. And I mourn for my aunt who I am very close to .. I pondered what could she possibly say to her daughter @ this time? What words could truly bring her comfort? We as a family are interceding for their peace and that the Lord will create good as His word declares out of something so horrible. Than I thought about my son. I just about had a nervous breakdown when he stubbed his toe!!! But those cuts and bruises can be mended by a kiss from mom and and a band aid. But how to help mend a broken heart. How does a mother nurture back a wounded soul? Isn't that our job? I tell him frequently " mommy will make it all better".. and I don't think you stop feeling that way even when they are grown. I'm sure he will have a heart ache @ times.. a death, a breakup, a loss friendship. But how could I assist in easing his pain if I've never felt that way myself. I guess there is a thing about having " experience".. and the ability to confidently say " This too shall pass".. eventually the hurt will dull and the memories will fade and you'll be left with a choice. Am I going to choose to dwell on that which I can not change or take back. Or will I press forward choosing my thoughts and discarding those that bring me sorrow. It sounds so superficial. But having to do that myself I can tell my son It is possible. Life really does move along. I wonder what advice in time my aunt will tell my cousin. As for today I think lots of hugs, kisses and " I can't make it better, but this too shall pass".. that will have to be enough.

Turtle Cove

2008-07-03T06:32:00.000-07:00

First of all I am sorry for all of my misspellings.. I really suck @ that!!! And I'm @ work in between patients so I am ALWAYS rushing. Now that stated lets talk Turtle Cove.. Must be the greatest water park rt by my house ever!!! And I finally rallied up the mommy troops and we went. Even the mommies that are a bit " house-bound".. ( Joanna) came!! What a treat. Are great friend Angela did not!! But I'm sure I'll drag her there this week some time! My BF Kryste came to pick me up and rt away my day was blessed. She pulled rt up loaded her car put my car seat in, placed my son in there, drove , paid for parking , and helped me carry all of my bags! Thank you Lord for such a blessing. The kids of course had such a great time.. They are really growing fast. It's so bittersweet though. I remember the first time I put Christian into a pool, now he's running through the water!!! He was a bit nervous @ first but after watching his buddies he was all about it. And you know what I cherish so much about our group.. Ok well here's a list
1) We are united spiritually
2) We do not judge each other in a negative way
3) We are very open and transparent with one another
4) we are each others eyes and ears and always looking out for one another's babies!!
5) We genuinely want to see our children flourish in every way , physically, spiritually etc
6) We truly want to stay connected as friends
7) We make each other feel special and pretty even when we aren't feeling that way!
8) We honor the Lord @ our meetings and place His presence as top priority
9) We keep in contact, although I have to brag that I'm prob the best @ that!
10) We pray for one another!!

Turtle Cove was just one of so many fun things to come for our group and we are all looking forward to the next summer event!!!

Shake shake shake!!!

2008-06-26T10:53:00.000-07:00

So my dear friend Chryste totally talked me into buying this makeup bare minerals; which was 80 bucks for the starteer kit, that i didn't need to spend money on. Needless to say with erh urging and the sales lady putting it on my face and the woman around me complimenting my flawleess complexion!!! What can i say I splurged. Well it's all a powder that you shake just a LITTLE BIT into the cap and take your makup brush and thus apply.. Each little disk is like 30 bucks by itself and the foundation, again a powder, is supposed to last a really long time. So here I am Wed am sitting indian style slowly ightly shaking the " dust" into the cap to carefeully apply this wonder makeup when I hear " shake shake".. It's a song that I kindda sing to Christian when I'm mixing up his vitamins in his almosnd milk so I " shake " it together and he gets a kick out of it.. Any wya I hear his little voice " shake , shake".. and ther ehe is!!! Shaking the whole foundation allover the carpet and noy only is he really " shaking" it he decided to spread it AROUND with his fingers!!!Ahh I love him though.. but oh my Gosh!! i almost screamed but caught myself and said Buba that's not yours ... he handed it back!!!

So much To Say

2008-06-19T07:37:00.001-07:00

It has been forever since I've last blogged. So much has happened where do I begin. Well I'm feeling so much better and have gained 30 plus lbs.. um the baby weighs app 2-3 lbs!! HA HA.. Pregerness is an excuse to get fat! My dad has recently retired and my bro came to see me and visit for a bout a week. Jay and I also went away to Florida for a couple days and oh we bought a house!!! Now that's a testimony which I will blog in the future about. But for now I wanna discuss my wish list. It's been running through my mind so I thought I'd Shae it with whom ever reads it and who knows maybe it'll come to pass in the future! OK so the list may not be realistic but it's still my WISH list.....
1) Christian will never get sick, have his heart broken, get another booboo, , get scared, have unwarranted fear, and has a perfect life in every way!
2) My job moved closer to my house
3) Jay could make 100000 a year just on his good looks
4) I could model, maybe even for pregers everywhere!!
5) Aunt Linda didn't have cancer
6) My favorite Floridian family lived down the street from me
7) My mom and ada will live for oh about 80 more years with out sickness
8) They'd quit smoking
9) They'd serve the LORD and attend MY CHURCH
10) My mom would no longer suffer from depression and be a house hermit
11) They would not kill BUSTER their dog by giving him scrap food and causing him to be obese
12) I was a great speller and typeset!!
13) My bro served the Lord and lived in Michigan and thought as much of me as I do to of him]
14) His future wife and I will be BFFS and watch each others babies grow up
15) I will loose all my baby fat and then some the day after he's born
16) I have no pain during labor
17) this baby is healthy and happy and just so perfect
18) That everyone will love being @ my house and will feel loved there
19) That my friends want to hang out more
20) revival hits our church and everyone is filled with the spirit
21) jay didn't diet and care so much about how he looks
22) I could use my Victoria secret card again
23) I want to eat @ the Whitney
24) I didn't have to get my hair highlighted my roots were naturally blond!!!
25) Eye brow waxing is a thing of the past
26) That I was a true vegetarian
27) Every mommy attends mommies in faith group
28) That you are enjoying reading my blog!!!

Thankful

2008-02-28T10:23:00.000-08:00

Wow I haven't blogged in so long. And so much has happened!! But for now I will discuss the most recent turn of events. I am pregnant. And happily so! In fact it was my # 11th prayer request on my fast, and I discovered I was on the 11th day of that fast. Well since then my health has really taken a turn for the worse. I have something called hyperemesis gravid um, prob spelled that wrong,. It's a syndrome that occurs for some mommies to be that has us feeling nauseated all the time, puking all the time and just really weak. Well after about three months of this I was starting to get bitter.. not better. So I began to really change my prayers. I still desire that miraculous healing I know that Lord has already died on the cross for me to have. But in the meantime my prayer is for the strength and endurance to last during this time. And that Lord told me today to put on a garment of praise. And praise is just outward thankfulness to Him. And to be honest I kind of struggled with this. what is there to be thankful about @ this time? What good has come from me being laid up and feeling like crap! Let's just be truthful... Well this list came across my mind and as did the memories of it.
I am thankful for...
1) xtra time snuggling up with my little man, as he would give me kisses and stroke my hair
2) discover how christian really is in tune with his mama. He would only leave my room to bring toys which he'd then place in my bed nxt to me.
3) being off work and having that xtra time to really see Jay in a different light. I think with my busy schedule it was hard for me to recognize his stresses and business of his life. This time has enabled me to see his life and have a greater appreciation for all of the sacrifice's he makes for our family.
4) ability to watch a baby's story and take home chef!!! My two favorite shows!
5) have more compassion for the chronically sick and really search my own heart. Being a nurse there are times when we become numb to the sick and actually get kinda aggravated by all of their complaining. And here I was in the er, really complaining.
6) catch up on some books and magazines!
7) for the friends that actually called and checked up on me! There was only a few but hey I appreciate them!
8) my personal time with the Lord. I wish I could say that I praised him this whole time and had my nose in the Bible but that isn't the case. It's just recently that I've been calling out to Him and reading his word.
9( my alone time with Christian, I've just ate him up... All of his affection and his new things he's learning. I would've missed out on that if I was working or preoccupied.
10) to see things more clearly, I feel like the Lord has placed these things under a microscope, allowing me to view them with more precision!!!
I know that this is a season and it shall pass and I know as in the book of James, to count it all joy for this testing brings for perseverance.. And maybe my fruit of the spirit , LONG SUFFERING, will be added to my basket! But whatever the reason, I am going to put on my garment of praise and appreciate those good things that have and will develop from this time. Because I am more that a conquer er in Christ Jesus!!!!

Christian's birthday!!!

2007-12-07T07:17:00.000-08:00

Today is my boy's birthday... Ahh I feel joy and yet a little sorrow... I am so blessed to be able to have a son that I just adore.. BUT yet I feel that he's growing too fast.. I miss the little bundle that went everywhere mommy went.. I literally did not put him down until oh about 5 months!!! But there will be more to come i have to get back to work...

CHRISTMAS

2007-12-03T05:47:00.000-08:00

So I'm having issues.. Christmas issues that is... did some research because of my never ending passion for truth!!! I want to know the orgins of Christmas. Well what I discovered has really bothered me. It's all bathed in Paganism!! from the Christmas tree to Santa... UGH.. how can I participate in a holiday that doesn't root itself in Christianity?? How can I celebrate my Lord's birth when really it isn't HIS birthday? So my endeavor continues. I have been listening to Christmas carols and thinking ugh... they are like worshiping Santa and even the Christmas tree.. " oh Christmas tree.. how wonderful are thee.. blah blah..".. The only tree that should get recognition is the one that Jesus was nailed to for our salvation!! And Santa.. Satan disguised is what I see. I almost feel that the Lord has lifted a veil from my eyes.. I see things differently. Why celebrate a holiday that totally exploits the sins that the Lord hates!!! 1) Lust... for material things.. 2) gluttony.. we all get fatter round the holidays, 3) lies.. yes we lie to our kids about a fictional character who in my opinion is worshiped and adored in the place where my Savior should be! UGh... Well then I've been thinking that 1) Christmas at least is the time of year where people are most generous... 2) it does get families a chance to see each other, 3) and I believe it's when people are saved the most. People that normally never go to church all make an appearance to either a play or a Christmas eve service.. so in that I am pleased. I guess I am just struggling within myself @ the hypocrisies of life. How can we just do what everyone else does.. Or just believe what has been passed down through the generations. I'm not one of those... " go along with the crowd".. people. And Praise God for that cuz that's how HE made me!! BUT my baby... hmm what I want to instill n him is that same fiery spirit.. Not to settle for what the word calls good... Search things out for himself. I want him to depend on the Holy spirit's discernment.. not even mine. I am going to have a tree, that will NOT be sung to or sung about.. I will buy him gifts but give them In the name of Jesus.. who is the ULTIMATE gift.. but I will not have him sit on the big fat red Santa.. "( Satan) impostors lap!! that I will not budge on!!! So anyway there it ... MY CHRISTMAS STORY!!

To laugh outloud!!!

2007-11-05T13:09:00.000-08:00

Yesterday I wasn't feeling very well. As I lie on the couch I hear my little man just giggling away... I love to hear him laugh; espically when it's from his belly a real big laugh!! I turn to look in his direction and there he is... Just as proud as proud can be standing besides his tall tower of legos. He carefully places his little finger agaist the bottom lego just to see if with a little pressure it'll fall over. And he laughs because it doesn't!!! Then there he goes adding another one.. then he tries to push it down!! But it doesn't fall so the building continues. Ahh what simplicity. To be able to find pleasure in something so simple. When have I laughed like that? I mean from way down deep. So I drop to my knees and join his endveor and we build. He looks at me and smiles. That always warms my heart. And then the last block was placed... And crash!!! They all fell.. And boy did he laugh.. I laughed too...

Let this light of mine shine

2007-11-02T18:57:00.000-07:00

Well I had a shinning moment a few days ago.. I went to the mall in Fair lane to get my little man a hair cut. Now the history is that he HATES his hair cut.. I mean screams; the whole nine yards! So I figure I'll take him to the " kiddie one"... So we walk into what appears to be a cute fun haircutting arena.. I approach to speak to the hairdresser who immediately puts his finger up in the air in a shushing manner as he converses on the phone. I am immediately angered! BUT I was nice... so I took my baby out of his stroller to allow him to roam about. The man finally speaks! " You want your kids' hair cut?" " Yes", I replied BUT wanting to say ; " No Mr. Ding Dong I'm here because I have nothing better to do".. He continues on to tell me to put him into this airplane looking chair. I proceed to inform him that my little bundle is quite scared of haircuts and I really hope that this experience will be a better one for him. The man replied.." Listen I am not here to baby your kid, if he cries I'm still going to keep cutting; that's up to YOU and how YOU can handle it".. UGH .. Seriously if I had Edward Scissor-hands I would have gouged his eyeballs out! BUT I didn't.. A little taken a back I replied.." Um, no I really want him to get his hair cut, I'm just saying that he's nervous".. This conversation became quite heated as the barber man proceeded to tell me that this was my fault and my problem. Well I took my son OUT of the chair and informed him that he was A) Rude B) Ignorant and C) Not my psychologist... He then came back with " well you've got to be a psychologist to raise kids.. maybe when you're boy is 16 you'll let him get a haircut!"!!! Being the lovely GODLY woman that I am I did not hit him. BUT I did tell him to get a clue; he's seriously JUST a hairdresser and a kiddie one at that! As I was leaving I tried to get my son to flip him off.. but he didn't get it. Even as I write this I'm mad! I'm mad at the RUDENESS I'm mad at the UN COMPASSIONATE heart of this DIN DONG!!! Well on my car ride home I kept hearing.. " You are the light of the world. Let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven. UGH I know that scripture.. Math. 5-13.. It doesn't take a genius to see where there the Lord was leading me with this one. So I repented for my rudeness but honestly felt that he got what he deserved. HE WAS RUDE!! But yet that scripture kept coming back to mind, and heart. I thought about it as I laid in bed that night. Why did I respond the way I did? why couldn't I just kept my saucy mouth shut and let it slide off my back. And quite frankly I know why. It had to do with my child. As a mother I can be as fierce as a lion to protect my baby. Even if it's just words. His really unkind attitude towards my son got this light a burning. But where was the LIGHT OF THE LORD in that moment? Why did I hide it? Hmmm.. That scripture doesn't mean to ONLY let your light shine when your in a good mood or when things go our way. It says to shine so that men; which means ding dong, will see my good deeds and praise Jesus for them! I'm sure there wasn't much praising Him for me that night. I guess I can chalk it up as yes, another failed attempt to HOLY living yet again. BUT I am reassured of how gracious, and forgiving my Lord is. And thank you Jesus that your mercies are renewed with each morning. So the POINT of this super long BLOG is to allow your light to shine in all ways and all of your days no matter how many din dongs you encounter !!!

THANKFULNESS

2007-11-02T11:39:00.000-07:00

As I awoke this am I had an overwhelming feeling of thankfulness.. I rolled over to see the hubby sleeping and thanked the Lord that A) He's not sleeping on sand in Iraq B) passed out on the concrete after drinking at the bar... I am thankful for the baby asleep in his crib and not A) a hospital crib with a sickness or B) in a cardboard box outside!!! I am thankful for the car that has heated seats that takes me to a career where I am able to obtain wealth.. Greatful for the dad that I will leave a message on his phone that I have arrived at work ok, and greatlfully thankful to the LORD who is the giver of every good thing. To my Savior that has provided for all of my need according to HIS riches and GLORY!!

My Precious Gift

2007-11-01T18:45:00.000-07:00

Hubby and I

2007-11-01T18:39:00.000-07:00

My hubby and I .. so in love!!!